love me?..hate me?..that is the question..

"defense mechanisms of a certain organism make an odor by itself"

but can something tell that its not only me but everyone else around her..

hurt?

yah i know..

i've been there when people starts to hate who i am..but i learned..

because i believed that..

a person who don't learn from their mistakes..

TEND TO REPEAT IT OVER AND OVER AGAIN...

i am not talking about i am not like her..

that i Am perfect to judge..

and i Am flawless to see what's wrong..

but..

with due respect..

i have told her these once..

her close friend also is telling these again and again..

stiLL

people acts tupperware on her..

frigid or blind?

"insisting on what to believe is not fighting to what you want..

living on principles that hurts everybody..

that's what you get when you let your heart win"

this is it i'M done..

reckless..yet satisfying..

..last shot--give the best thing that you have and i will cry over you..

i may be a jerk, yet i know when to be a jerk..

oooooppppssss...

i did it again..

love me.. hate me..

that's me..

muuuuuuaaaaaahhhh..

seXy decoYs

what is set between different people colliding in one place, time and chance?

Filter them.. find who’s true and who’s not..

We’ve been together for more than two years but challenges that opens up our true colours were just starting..

Will it just be costly thing yet ordinary in the eyes of the creator that destroy our friendship?
Or being insensitive when everybody’s hurt by what you said?
Will it be bugging around a guy who’s taken by a friend?
Or not being present on trips and laags?
Will it be how much you can afford to buy?
Or how you boast things that others aren’t capable to buy?

Or should I say is it how one can accept another’s flaws and differences.

Many circumstances that spins us around.. sa akin pa lang marami na..
By those circumstances, nakilala ko kayo..

At the beginning, its hard to adjust with people who have different interests..

Hindi biro ang itago mo muna panandalian kung ano ka para makasundo mo sila.. tama? At lalong hindi biro ang magbago ka dahil lang sa taong kinaiinisan mo..

Nevertheless, I managed to be with you guys.. slowly and little by little, I’m going out of my shell.. and by this time, I have known who has been true all the time and who has not..

I believe that friends should be there with each other no matter what had happened, is happening and what will happen..

Sana in the end.. ganito man tau ngaun decoys.. sabay2 parin tau magpapakasal, manganganak, magpapabinyag, magkakaron ng hypertension, magsusuffer sa mga hirap ng life at mamatay..

Kasi fRiends tau..

love me yes!!

how much one can sacrifice when we talk about love?..

accepting his flaws.. tolerating his attitude.. having a greAt PAtIENCE..

wiDe range of Understanding.. you'Re like having a pet.. you arrange yet, here he comes

a destroyer!!!

hahahaha.. tRue.. but, nothing feels better when one is in love.. right?

i remember those times when i was adjusting with his life.. we fought.. but ends up loving each other.. there are many times that we hurt each other.. and sometimes we take time to accept each others' past..

the time i started to love him was the first time i feel hurt..

why do i feel hurt everytime we talk about what haqppened in the past?

maybe because i love..

maybe insecure..

fortunately, i still learn to accept.. "kaya q pa rin tanggapin ano siya"

wise men says we're too young for this..

i say.. love will takes it place no matter where when and where..

nobody could tell how fulfilling it is when you know everynight someone misses you..

when you're far away, someone longs to see you..

when you fought, you both want to hug each other and say how much you both regret the fight..

hahaha.. obviously, i'M in Love with someone who have hurt me soo many times but managed to fill up his shortcomings..

we are dreaming to share our lives forever..

WHO SAYS TAKEN ARE LASPAG?

takens are fat because they love to share the same food..

they love to sleep together..

they share their social lives..

see?hahaha..

spread the love!!!!

i haTe tHis pArt righT here!

How could one be judgmental when in fact we have our own flaws?.. no satisfaction I guess.. we all want the best in our lives yet world cannot give the most perfect..

I could still remember how we met.. by a common friend who is indeed her room mate.. I will name her ms. Something.. we were not close then because we were in different sections.. I just know her by name.. until fate challenged me to be with the same section as hers.. at first I though she’s fine but one day.. ‘twas Filipino subject, I was annoyed by her existence.. she’s like so boisterous knowing I haven’t studied for our quiz.. starting that day, libak sessions, cursed words and all the negatives have been with me until now..

The things I hate about her:

She’s noisy
Arrogant
Talks about herself too much
Judgmental
Insecure
Exaggerated in all sense
Death in silence
Very much competitive
Very much emotional
Too numerous to remember.. I don’t know if she’s born with these kind of traits or she just want to catch everybody’s attention.. honestly, each day I’m with her.. my list of go-to-hell-factors were increasing.. I am not that kind of girl before.. but, Lord God.. please explain to me why I hate her so much that I can’t stand to be with her in a day without back stabbing..

On the brighter side.. there are some traits which were acceptable..

The things I like about her:
She’s friendly
Smart
Rational
Pretty
Mabait naman xa..

Hahaha.. do I appear sarcastic? Nah, these were true.. she value friendship so much.. sometimes I think that the more I try to hate her, the more I lose.. but to think others would feel the same thing for her.. we fought but became friends again..i will not be that rude but positively, she’s kind.. knows how to sentiment.. the problem is just I can’t accept her flaws which are also present in mine.. maybe I’m not her true friend.. she gave challenges that will test how I face those.. I really hate this part right here..

PEACE OUT YOU ALL…

-to tHe sigNificaNt othErs in mY liFe-

For how many times I cried.. for how many times I was beaten up.. my wants never prevailed and my rights was never revealed..

Yet, you taught me things that I was trying to live now. You open my eyes in many realities that comes in different circumstances.. you taught me that how to give effort before possessing one thing..

Dear Mama and Tatay,

18 years had passed up till now you still treat me like a child.. never let me go on my own without your permission.. you know how much I hate you when your holding up my nose.. you also know how much I want to decide on my own.. but, even you are letting me fall you still there at the floor where I would land.. I know its not easy to be parents of someone with this kind of attitude.. nevertheless, you accept me despite of all the immortal sins I committed.. even if I let you burst out into anger and even if I hurt you deep inside..

Mama..
you are almost a best friend to me.. you know what things that annoys me yet you are pushing those.. maybe you want your childish daughter turn into a beautiful woman.. time can wait.. I don’t want to be a woman.. I still want to be the child you tickle and even you nag everytime I sleep so hard that I forget that I have classes.. I want to be your baby who when in her highest temperature you cook porridge and even buy singkamas just to cool her down.. I love you mama.. no one can ever compare how much you have sacrificed a lot for me.. I understand why you don’t want me to engage in any relationship coz remember, I am not yet a woman..

I want you to take care of yourself when I’m away coz it’s a big loss if you are not with me.. there are still things I need to learn from you.. I promise that I will be the one to take care of you as you grow old..


Tatay…

I admit that until now I am still afraid of you but I want to be close to you like I know you treat me like a princess.. right? Tay, I am so touched everitime mama would say that you misses me when I’m here in davao.. you love me I know.. you give me almost everything and you work so hard for my studies.. tatay, I hate disappointing you but I keep on doing the same thing again and again.. you may not be present during my special occasions but you assure that I am happy.. tay, I have nothing much to say because even if you can’t read this I’m still shy to express everything.. you know how much I love you.. still your princess even if for how numerous times I failed you..

Take care of yourself during work tay coz I can’t afford to lose you..
You are my knight in shinning armor.. my savior from all the difficulties..


Kuya Pet..

I miss you already.. i am still hoping that you would come back and we’d play games together.. I wish I never bought you a junk food.. if that would be the reason why you’re not here right now.. kuya.. I love you.. I want you back..

Pki tell kay God na tulungan nya kami ha.. kuya wish you were here..



I love you all and I want you to be with me forever..
Muuaaahh..

Love lots
Baby..

i'M a LatE coMer!

wHat's with scHooL thAt i haTE coming in so early?

toDay for the nTh time...i was absent during our Literature..

i missed the quiz..i missed the roleplay..

oooohh la la.. can anybody tell me whats wrong or its just a vrus called "indolence"..

i remembered the first time i was late..

college algebra..should be there at 3:00 pm..came in almost 4..reason? i slept all afternoon..

philosophy.. should be there 7:30 a.m.. woke up exactly 7:30.. and our instructor locked the door.. good thing i wasn't alone.. more than 50% of the class were late and our paper number three was in danger..

honestly, i love sleeping but i sleep late at night that's why i Am stressed out everytime i meet the steel chairs, hot classrooms and boring college instructors (ahaha peAce ouT!)..

should i not continue this because the moRe i do it the lesser the grade i get..

too much confidence.. i only do it at minor subjects most specially Philo and Literature..not to mention nutri which tightens up my brain..

sometimes, i want to change..

i want to be early yet, i haTe waking up so early..

i NeeD help..a counselor..a priest..

with a bit of luck, i can get enough rest this coming break..so that i will be now more responsible..

i'LL enter the hardest and most challenging part of my career..thE professional stage..

good luck to Me..

gOd Bless to evryone!!!!

mwaah!!

my LiFe--hE sTeaLs

my Life witH him is a challenge..

a cHallenGe i woUld rather take thaN losiNg..